-
Beach Story
We went to the beach. I was 6 and there were 6 adults on this trip to Virginia Beach. My mom, grandfather, 3 aunts and 1 uncle were all on vacation. There was water, sand and people as far as I could see. As is pretty common in my childhood, there are no other kids…
-
My EMDR experience – Sessions 1&2
After having researched and prepared for emdr for quite a while, I went into the session with my target incident in mind. This would be my first time meeting the counselor providing the service, as all of the prior assessments were done by the previous counselors. I felt at ease and we spoke briefly about…
-
My EMDR experience – Background/Intro
**rough draft I don’t really remember the first time i heard about emdr but i def remember this very common feeling I have where something is just not meant for me. Like there’s no way my trauma was serious enough or my insurance would cover that or a flying fat chance in hell I’d even…
-
Free Will Is a Spectrum
Does everyone have free will? Of course I believe in the concept of free will but is it really for those of us with trauma backgrounds? If the brain is programmed at the earliest age that being “pleasant” gets the attention you need and that being sad or angry because that is how you really…
-
My life is a trauma response
My life blew up shortly before my son’s third birthday. That’s not entirely accurate. Let me try again… Around my son’s third birthday, a couple of years before I turned 40, the fog began to lift. Up to that point, it was like I had been living with my head in a cloud. Not really…
-
Letter to Me
Oh my little one How I wish I could have been there for you When your heart was breaking And you felt so alone. But I am here for you now. I wish I could have held you And rocked you and told you That it was okay. I would have told you that you…