There is a little girl inside me
wrapped in layers of pain.
I cannot be with her unless I feel it
So I left her
Locked behind a wall of fear
Alone with disdain.
How can I be with her?
I hate her, reprimand and criticize her
Adding to the layers of pain
Adding bricks to the walls
Trying to shut her out.
Now she is calling me.
Louder then before
Screaming my name
Saying.. I AM YOU!
How can you hate and ignore me?
She says, I cannot bear to be
alone anymore, I need you.
You cannot shut me out
For I am within.
I’ve spent years desperately searching for someone
to save her from me.
A few have tried and failed.
Her only way out
is through me living her pain,
and loving her anyway.